Chapter 2. Spokes (fragment)
Artyom sat down at the computer. The monitor glowed coldly in the dark room. Now he had to do the very work he hadn't had time to do during the day, because he'd been creating a work template and "consulting." The Q2 Quota Report. He opened the file. Dozens of tables, hundreds of cells, formulas that were supposed to prove something unrelated to reality. This wasn't work. It was a ritual. An offering to a deity called Statistics.
It was here, in the stillness of the night, that the metaphor of the Evil Wheel took on new, eerie contours for him. He realized that the Wheel wasn't just a symbol of cyclicality. It had spokes. And these spokes dug into you, preventing you from falling out.
The first spoke was Debt. The mortgage for this cramped apartment, the loan for that five-year-old foreign car, the vacation plans that kept getting postponed, the bills for extracurricular activities and tutors for the kids. These were the invisible chains that chained him to his office chair. Any movement away threatened a loss of stability, that fragile, illusory stability that was merely a pause between Perturbations.
The second spoke was Language. That Newspeak they used at work: "proload," "synchronize," "insights." It created the illusion of complex intellectual activity, but in reality it was a hollow language designed to conceal the simple truth: nothing was happening. Once you mastered this language, you could no longer think in any other categories. You began to see the world through its distorting mirror.
The third spoke was the Memory of the Perturbation. Vague, but ineradicable. It lived within him like a built-in fuse against radical actions. "Don't stick your neck out, don't take risks, don't change anything drastically—or else it will be like that."
A society that had once been shaken like a box of parts feared any sudden movement. Once, a vast country, where everyone had their own place, their own task, and their own secure future, was shaken so violently that every single part flew out of its sockets.
And for almost forty years, these parts—people, businesses, entire cities—have been trying unsuccessfully to find a new place, to understand who they should be and what they should strive for. It was psychologically easier for them to endlessly roll along the beaten track than to plunge into the unknown and start all over again from scratch.